Saturday, December 20, 2014

Decorating the Tree

This Christmas I feel just a little bit dizzy. Disillusioned...

I just want to hit the pause button and give Tom a few days to catch up in with work and me a couple hours to stare at a wall.... and then YAY! Christmas!!!

 But alas there is no pause button and so I have to try to squeeze in some wall staring and some praying for my overworked husband... and find my Christmas spirit anyway...

And its always when I start... when I just do it that I find the feeling that I am looking for.

When I pull out the ornaments and let them at the tree.... and I realize twelve months have passed since last we did this.

They are all a year older. The time just slips through my fingers each day... until on days like these I notice. And I breath deep and thank God for it all... and ask for more time. More awareness. One more year of all this joy I don't deserve.

Friday, November 14, 2014

The Rope

At the end of a long week and another dinner on my own with the kids I exclaimed to no one in particular that I was at the end of my very short rope!!!

Tommy then being confused  innocently asked me "How short is your rope exactly momma?"

At this moment.... it got a little longer. Some of the knots of anxiety and irritation undone by six year old accidental humor.

A few minutes later at dinner the kids and were talking about Camelot.... King Arthur.... Guinevere...

 I was trying to ring bells because I know they have seen movies involving the legend and we just got the Magic Treehouse book, Christmas in Camelot.

 I asked Bella if she knew what it was and she said, "The place with the bears?"

I looked at her confused and Vivian exclaimed, "Ohhhhhh! You mean Canada?"

um..... no.... well.... yes. Canada has Bears.

But that is not what we were getting at...

Ok never mind.

In other news today was the first real snow for this winter. Talk about excited kids! They were out playing in the glorified dusting before nine and in again before ten! 

Here is to a happy and relaxed weekend and a mama with a slightly longer rope at the end of it all! 

Monday, November 10, 2014

Weekend Roundup

Soooo.... Whats happened since February? HA..... a lot...

Lets just start with what happened this weekend...

Tommy played in his first Soccer game! Much anticipated and a week late because of a high fever last weekend. So proud of my boy! Its fun being a mom on the sidelines... heart wrenching but fun.

Daniel had his first game last week... I got pictures but none of them turned out to well.... I will have to mine Dads phone for some better ones and post them next time.

Besides Soccer there was a trip to Home Depot with the whole crew.

And some impromptu drywalling of the basement stairwell followed...

Then I thought I would make us all some apple dumplings ala pioneer woman. So I popped open the crescent rolls I had stolen from my Mom only to find they were GARLIC flavored.... have you ever heard of such a thing??? So instead we made pepperoni rolls.

I discovered Vivian has a flare for rolling bread dough.

Hers were by far the neatest of them all.... so... all in all a good, busy , productive and fun weekend.
And hopefully a good little start in getting back into the habit of keeping track of some memories here.

Friday, February 7, 2014

Catching Joy

         Today was a blur of laundry, school, meals, dishes, school, folding, school, diaper change, school, break up fight, kiss boo boo, meal.... But somewhere around dinner prep as school work got finished and chicken got put in the oven the kids begged to go outside. Into the barren tundra. And I sighed and gritted my teeth and said yes.

           Then came the gloves, layers, POTTY FIRST! More layers, hats, lost boots.... And finally they were out! 

.....Then Vivian's boot slipped off. So out I went to help her. Thinking I would come back in.

I went out in sweat pants and just my coat and boots.... But the joy caught me. And then Tom who was working in the office saw the joy out the window and had to come join in. 

And we spent and hour freezing and winded. Together and laughing. Snapping pictures, making memories, grabbing onto the fleeting joy of fresh snow in a too short childhood. 

Sometimes we get so busy we forget what it's all really for. 

More of this please and thank you.